Early Sunsets Over Monroeville

Late dawns and early sunsets, just like my favorite scenes

Then holding hands and life was perfect, just like up on the screen

And the whole time while always giving

Counting your face among the living

Up and down escalators, pennies and colder fountains

Elevators and half price sales, trapped in by all these mountains

Running away and hiding with youI never thought they'd get me here

Not knowing you changed from just one bite

I fought them all off just to hold you close and tight

But does anyone notice? But does anyone care?

And if I had the guts to put this to your head...But would anything matter if you're already dead?

And should I be shocked now by the last thing you said?

Before I pull this trigger, Your eyes vacant and stained...But does anyone notice?

But does anyone care? And if I had the guts to put this to your head...And would anything matter if you're already dead?

And now should I be shocked by the last thing you said?

Before I pull this trigger, Your eyes vacant and stained...And in saying you loved me,Made things harder at best,

And these words changing nothing

As your body remains,

And there's no room in this hell,There's no room in the next,

And our memories defeat us,And I'll end this direst.

But does anyone notice? But does anyone care? And if I had the guts to put this to your head...But does anything matter if you're already dead?

And should I be shocked now by the last thing you said?

Before I pull this trigger,Your eyes vacant and stained...And in saying you loved me,

Made things harder at best,And these words changing nothingAs your body remains,

And there's no room in this hell, There's no room in the next,

But does anyone notice there's a corpse in this bed?

read between the lines..

Sometimes it pisses me off to attend her lesson, up till now i have never regret carrying that kinda emotion to her classes. So what you're a language lecturer? I seriously don't give too much shit about you. Yea, i never said that my command of langauge is as perfectly as you think but there's no need for you to send me into the level of eternity condemnation. Yea, so your fav pet is him, at least i think my ability much more higher than him in any sense.

You make me sick, you witch.

Child of our time

25 babies, 20 years in the making. Child of our time (shown on arts central from wed-fri 10pm) is a wonder documentary. Words alone can't describe the amazement that it brought me. Is the child's future decided by fate? or nurture? This documentary tells it all. Although it's just the first episode, I think i will be glued to it from the first episode onwards.


One Wednesday (forgotten which particular one), the guy that was sitting beside me asked about my mst results for maths. I merely told him 87. Although i had no idea about him collecting the whole class' results for data analysis or for personal interest, whatever the case, I really don't care much. But his next statement pissed me off totally. (In chinese):" Wha, I didn't know an ah beng lookalike like you can achieve such high marks!" I was like :"Thanks." Nothing much i could say. Not that I'm pissed with him calling me an ah beng ( though i really looked like one), rather I'm wondering how shallow can this guy be? Judging a book from the cover is the worst mistake you can ever afford in your life, man.


Ever wonder the importance of you being in others' life? I'm beginning to feel so small now.

burnt out.

Had a whole weekend filled with nothing else but soccer. I think age really degrades your body in some way or another, I have never felt so tired before! Gosh. My right hip is sore and my knee caps are hurting alittle. That had never happened before. OH well nvm.

You know there are certain days when u really don't feel like talking and everyone just keep asking you stuffs? Haiz. I really dunno what to do with them at times. Since i have a problem with rejecting people, i just dragged myself into accomplishing their task. Any suggestions?

There are stuffs that others did behind you and you knew about it. Yet they don't realised it. Therefore, they continue giving u the smile or treating u as per normal. How issit possible for them to possibly do such a hypocritical thingy? I'm far worse off though, I treat as if nothing has happened and entertain them most of the time. I think i'm very pretencious. So who's right and who's wrong this time?

I think i have a flaw. I make statements without thinking all the time, ignorant to others' feelings. Not that I never tried, but it's just me. I know it's a lame excuse. It's just something i can't overcome. A friend once told me :" Your charcter belongs to the extreme catergory, it's either they like you or they hate you." Perhaps those who knew me way back would have gotten used to it by now. I mean all my close friends talked this way. Shooting insulting insults at each other, but all in the name of fun. I know that there are sensitive people out there who obviously don't belong to that kinda clique, i should be more cautious in my way of appoarch. Isn't that tiring, you have to change modes with the different group of peers. After all these typing, I realised something. I Do have an attitude problem.

reflections.

Being remorseful is something that irritates me to the core. Yet most of the time, I can't help but feel guilty at the results that shows. I could have done better if not for procastination and laziness. I thought I have done pretty well. Yet it prove otherwise. I'm did better one year ago to be exact. Can't I be better this time around? Let's wait and hope.


A nick is purely a nick. Why would others presumed that your nick would definately represent the current state of mind? Stop assuming, it's making an ass outta u and me.

point blank

Orite, i'm back earlier than expected. Doesn't matter. I don't get much traffic anyway. In the midst of a breather. One final hurdle to clear for the week. Forgotten how tiring it was to study so hard. Cos I have never put in more effort than now. Mind went blank today as I went in to face the DSP paper. Bad feel, failure is not a mere potential now. Anyway, wana shout out to angela for giving this design to me. Thanks!


Politics, are getting on my nerves. Getting sick of it. Everyone is having problems with each other. Some brought it upon themselves, while the number of innocent parties grow. I think the number of times we uses our fore finger is increasing by the minute, pushin off the blame to someone else, and being pointed back as well. Though not expressed, we all have a nature to shed responsibility. I'm not spared either. However, I think I blame myself than onto others. YEah I'm not promoting, read at your own risk, rememeber? My host thinks I do not talk about myself in my own blog. I didn't realised. Perhaps to talk about myself is not as easy as it seems. Most of the time, i seem to be lost for words. I have the tendency to listen to OTHERS talk about themselves. I prefer to listen. *shrugs* No idea why either. It's been a while since i last entered anything this length. No idea of stopping yet, but I forced myself to. Savin it for a better day. I have no idea what i'm talking about in this entry since the first letter. Doesn't matter; I'm still clicking 'Publish Post'.