ransom :

Straight count : nine days more to first paper
Study rate : big fat zero! 0!!0!0!

Gawd, it's not the first time that i mentioned this but seriously, i'm falling back to my normal self again..back to the days of 18. Young and hopeless without a sense of direction. Though how much i try to focus my ever short attention span towards my books and notes, i prefer to leave them practically lying around my table while i turn my head to something more 'interesting'. Fine example : today, the supposedly final test for the CRS module. Paper starts at eight and what time did i wake? eight fourty five, by the time i reached the room it was almost 9.10am~ what the hell was i thinking. Doesn't matter, at the end of the thingy, i came out earlier than those who turned up punctually...not that i'm holding my nose sky high, more of like just gettin it over and done with. i couldn't be bother to argue on a piece of foolscap.


The next thing, it's overdued but i think it's time i vent something out here in my own personal space, regardless he reads it or not. Ya you went thru a bad patch of your life, you let your ego rule you and it's people around you that gets shit. When i thought u were finally over it, u claimed that my attitude is pissing you off when i meant a joke. Why have you become so petty ? Fuck myself you say, i think it's time u take a look at your own anus and see how pretty screwed you are right now. No doubt, you have more friends that i ever will accumulate, those that are still around, are worthy. Not that i'm claiming the rest of the group is not, there's just this one thin line between hang out pals and peeps that u can confide in. I always have the thinkin that i can survive without anyone, now coming to think about it, i can survive without your existence in fact. You said it long ago, i brought nothing positive into your life and the very reason why you hanged out with me confused you.
Here's my two cents worth : neither did you, neither did you. You brought more agony than i ever knew, you behave like a brat and i let you. So maybe it's time that we stay apart and god knows ten years down the road, we will be sitting at the same table again.

Fuck, all this typing is reminding me of the band incident again..

the next best thing :

What's the best thing to do when your folks are outta town, u are stucked at home with your sister and it has been raining the whole day and by the time it finally stop, it's almost four pm and u feel darn fucking slack to go anywhere and just wana chill at home instead? WATCH MTv....the videos shown today makes me feel younger again..hahah back to the days of teenage years.....fancy yourself watchin videos (not in order) : vanilla ice, emf's unbelievable, snow's informer, 4 non blonde's remember me, frente's bizzare love triangle, crash test dummies' mmm mmmm mmm mmm and who can forget that i'm too sexxy song...idiot proof. Gosh never knew that mtv watchin can have such an effect...somehow, if only i'm still 17/18 again.

HiatuS

On my way to weekly soccer today, i saw this teenage magazine...Headline : "PUNK revival!"
And the group showcased was Simple Plan. Then it struck me, why are they headin the punk thingy now? Everyone seems to be really interested in Good Charlotte, the new age Green Day, Simple plan and of course Avril. These are the sort of 'punks' which i shall only refer to as sell outs. No doubt, i have my fair share of shaking to their music in my younger days (not including GC and Avril, that is). But if this is the future of punkrock, then i guess there won't be much of a future for my favourite genre. Definately, there are tons of people out there disagreeing with me as i'm not punk, i dress normally and my attitude is totally different. But despite all these, i still consider myself a true blood punkrock fan. Ya, fine, that i'm only addicted to pop punk and emo. Does it matter? As more bands get sold out, we fans are left with a depleted choice of bands to listen to. Now even My Chemical Romance is on the verge, what should i do next? i know, listen to britney might help. fuck.

"Vampires Will Never Hurt You"

And if they get me and the sun goes down into the ground

And if they get me take this spike to my heart and

And if they get me and the sun goes down

And if they get me take this spike and

You put the spike in my heart

And if the sun comes up will it tear the skin right off our bones

And then as razor sharp white teeth rip out our necks I saw you there

Someone get me to the doctor, someone get me to a church

Where they can pump this venom gaping hole

And you must keep your soul like a secret in your throat

And if they come and get meYou put the spike in my heartAnd if they get me and the sun goes downAnd if they get me take this spike and

[Chorus]

Can you take this spike?Will it fill our hearts with thoughts of endless

Night time sky

Can you take this spike?

Will it wash away this jet black feeling?

And now the nightclub set the stage for this they come in pairs she said

We'll shoot back holy water like cheap whiskey they're always there

Someone get me to the doctor, and someone call the nurse

And someone buy me roses, and someone burned the church

We're hanging out with corpses, we're driving in this hearse

Someone save my soul tonight, please save my soul

[Chorus]

And as these days watch over time, and as these days watch over time

And as these days watch over us tonight

[x2]I

'll never let them, I'll never let them

I'll never let them hurt you not tonight

I'll never let them, I can't forget them

I'll never let them hurt you, I promise

Struck down, before our prime

Before, you got off the floor

Can you stake my heart? Can you stake my heart?

Can you stake me before the sun goes down?And as always, innocent like roller coasters.

Fatality is like ghosts in snow and you have no idea what you're up against because I've seen what they look like. Becoming perfect as if they were sterling silver chainsaws going cascading...

a hard day's work :

Was called up by Mr Bu shu zhan go and work for this warehouse sale thingy at suntec...dead tired now..standin around the whole day repeating the phrase : "Sorry, the exit is on the right, thanks." Saw how much the SALE word means to a lady..when she can lose her kid while shopping...anyway update again..now too tired....

How often :

Sometimes,while on the bus, i have this habit of lookin outside the window to check everything out while the discman is blasting away into my ears. Today, something struck me while on the way home. Out of a sudden, i just have this feeling, what if u were to be that guy crossing the road? That lady who is flagging furiously for a cab or even that little kid holdin his mother's hand while waitin for their turn. That someday you are actually lookin into your face but as a different person, how would u judge yourself? I sometimes wonder what others would be doin while i'm sitting here, typing this post and listenin to mp3s. Maybe, i think too much, which i don't usually do. Living life with a totally different point of view is something that we won't be able to experience...unless u are a sci-fi freak. So how do people with split personalities handle ? that emotional overhaul, that sudden change in perspective. If life permits, i would definately love the chance to be another person talkin to my own self. Just to see how screwed my own personality is. No wonder they say the best judge to your character are the people around you. Suddenly, i realised to a certain point, that statement is true.
I know this post is bullshit, i know. Just some confused issues. till laterz, cherrios

Shitty DaY..............

Today i went to attend this farewall gathering cum award presentation thingy organised by the school of business...cos my mum is there to watch mi sister get an award.......so i was sitting in the parents' section.......In front of me was this three business lecturer which i think all three of them are suckers...reason? simple...the moment the VIP and the director sat down just beside them, they were all but tryin to impress..and nothing but impress..fancy the three of them were the only ones that was laughin at the director's lame jokes.....and when the VIP came back to the seat after her speech, :"inspirational speech u gave, MS (watever her name was)." I have to tolerate that shit for almost three hours...fancy the agony i went thru.....then it was the performance. Apparently these five performance had to went thru a selection before they were given the opportunity to perform in front of all the year three students from SB. i had no comments on the first two performance, not bad...not very good either. Third one was a nightmare....can't dance, can't smile and can't impress. i had no idea what the fuck she was doin on the stage...perhaps it's not fair of mi to comment...given her courage in front of almost a thousand..but...argh..nvm....who am i go to judge....?When the ceremony finally ended, i have had enough reasons not to attend any school function in the future...even if i'm fortunate enough to be part of it...it just sucks.



Shitty day is mi title for this post....I can't take it any longer...why do i always get shit from people? AM i that nice to be bullied into submission? i don't think so? I mean i have had enough of tryin to be nice, tryin to tolerate everything piece of shit they hurled at me. While i take it down silently, they keep pushing more my way. What am i supposed to do then? Be MR. fucker tommorrow onwards? How are the people around me goin to take that kinda change immediately?

Why do i have to partner with someone whom i think won't be contributing? My reply was sarcastic enough : "Like i have a choice." Isn't that obvious enough? To show that i'm angered? If all permits, i would definately do that thingy alone. Now that i have completed the thingy with a friend's help. What's left for him to do? Fuck ....What happened to the freedom of choice....well, talking about that...people do have the right to choose and i respect that. So in the end, i get shit and i think i should just eat my own bullshit and shuddup. That leaves mi complainin to no one but this blog of mine. What happens to others who read your blog? you may ask. Seriously, since when do i give a shit? LEt others think whatever they want. From now on, i openly declare that i shall care no more. Just get my overdued diploma and fuck off..Maybe i have typed all this cos i'm pissed and maybe, just maybe i might get over it tomolo. I wore a thick mask today. Yes i Did.

Lemon barley drink

So it's been a while again, cos i dun really like the idea of posting up something each and everyday ..(i said that like thousand times already -_-")
So it's the end of the week again, and seriously i felt that i'm gettin old.....discovering new interests in stuffs like : listening to music, watching soccer, sittin down at kopitiams to drink my tea and smoke my life away. The zest of goin out to chil with mates are no longer appealing to mi. I avoid crowded areas like an ant on a hot pan, fast and quick.

I was recalling this incident that happened to mi during my trip to taiwan, there are actually computers there for u to get connected to the internet ...like how arcade machines operate, u drop in the coin and then the time starts counting...if u are lucky u might just be able to get a computer, if not ...two days and still no empty seats. it's about 50 cents per half an hour....sounds cheap rite? It's the same price nation wide....Amazing.
So one day, i got lucky and managed to get a computer for own usage, so missing all the punkrock shit, i decided to get all the sites that i know that enables mi to listen to some punkrock, and then there was this bunch of malay guys behind me, stunned : "wow, you are the first chinese guy that we ever knew listens to punkrock." I merely smiled.

Inside, i though to myself...are they just being sarcastic or wat? if not, i felt as if they were like frogs sitting in wells.....sigh i dunno ...just that this encounter with them makes mi feel that in their minds, we are all posers.