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first of all, i'm sick of apologising for the lack of updates....Din felt that there was any need to blog...cos simple there's no issues....and nothing that i wana talk about. So CNY is around the corner and suddenly ghost town chinatown is bussing with life.....by past it moments earlier, and hordes of human traffic~~~~Advise : go during the weekdays..and in the afternoon. Any one wana guess what i did during the weekends? LOL.....Saturday : soccer plus shopping for new body package. Sunday : slept the whole darn day away....only went out like say...about seven pm?for dinner and dessert. I'm not very certain that i should update my daily events in my blog still.....I mean I'm not like against the idea, just say erm...think it's kinda boring? I mean who cares about what you do the whole day?

suddenly,

Yeah outta a sudden i have a project thats dued tuesday, if not for kwang hao's piece of info, i think i will probably rush the last min already ...sigh..wat the hell....i thought he was a kinda good hearted lecturer..now.....look how the tables have turned........He din even mentioned a single word about the project.....wat to do??self learning....pui~!

bad hair day

with or without wax?sigh, it's all tough isn't it?

Misunderstood.

Am I or am I not? Some times, I do really wonder.

Never ever,

Others have claimed, that thou shall offend no woman. As it's punishable by death. I thought so too when i saw her face today, the complete silence, the can't be bother eyes and don't get within five meters of my radius kinda body language. I never thought anger can't be such an extreme emotion, i thought it was applicable only to the emotion : hatred. Forgive and forget, friends are the next best thing u will ever get.


It's been a number of days since my last entry, my most sincere apologies. I'm so not tempted to turn on my computer during the weekends, cos i need the rest from the week's hussle that i struggled thru. Waking up to attend the 8am on a daily basis is very tiring.....fancy waking up at seven everyday? Yea Yeah there will be people out there that's suffering more than what i'm goin thru at this moment, and people not having the priviledge to study, etc etc. Can't you see that i'm whining??


P.O.A. . . . . Walked past the marina square branch yesterday and saw this shirt and pants that look so good......nice combination, so decided to go and have a try....But guessed what, POA don't serve fat people like me!!! ahha just kidding...more of like the largest size they carry is like L and i'm more of a like a XL kinda build...sigh too bad ...if only the pants din make my balls look like it's overloaded with semen then i might have just bought it on the spot....sigh sigh sigh
My only outfit during the CNY season is gonna be so black and white...i don't care

Always~

Today, i embarked on a journey that took me about half an hour to reach. I visited the granny that i had held so close to my heart, yet denial in acknowledging. Tired might have I, but somethings remained unchange. It seems like it's been almost four years since she suffered from stroke that left her bed ridden, inability to communicate, and certain level of senile. To top it up, I only knew about her condition last week. I took a daring move, in goin up to a complete stranger that remembers only my childhood nickname and no memory of her existence in my braincells. She's the daughter of granny, whom i had till now fondly remember as ah poo. The gentle loving next door neighbour that would always give me shelter and care whenever i'm chased outta the house or getting caned by my mother. The very one that always brought me around my old neighbourhood, always carrying me in her arms. As fond as the memories can be, it disappears the moment i saw her current condition. I was stunned, shocked and dumbfolded. No amount of words would be able to describe my emotions when i set my glance on her. It pains my heart when i addressed her : "ah poo, I'm ah hai, ah mei's son." And with all her strength, she gave me an acknowledgin nod, and told me to have a seat. So i went outside and chatted with her daughter for a while, updating each other about our own lifes for the past fifteen years or more. Despite her suffering from memory loss, she asked me about my sister, during my second entry into her room. She was a plump, cheerful woman, who would give me a smile no matter what I did. The only reason why she's the only person i will ever keep in my heart. I can type all this in an emotional state, yet i asked myself, where were you when she was fighting the disease, where were you when she tried all available methods to contact, where were u when she needed you most? I blame myself for being incapable, trying to tell someone that i had missed her all this while, how dear was she and how close she was in my heart. How nice would it be to be able to give her a lil treat though i can afford peanuts, how warmming it would be to see her smile again. Yet i can do nothing, not even being to care for her. I was lost when i'm in that room, pondering on my next move, wondering on the available steps that i'm able to take. I wanted to hold her hand and tell her i'm sorry, and the gratitude for her being around. Though it might seem small and childish, to me it meant the world. When i finally bid her goodbye, I was alone with her in the room. No matter how I struggled, this time my tears dropped. For the first time in a while, yes, I cried.

well done, well done

Well done Singapore....Well done...not fully deserving the cup but who said singapore can't go against odds? Argh, I hate mondays~! can't take it ........ it's the start of another week~

Screwed

OKay i'm typing this on a sunday night........i spent the whole sunday asleep..too much soccer in one day is hazardous to health. Anyway, played with some lousy yet mouth fill with shit losers...i rather lose than to thrash those watever lah..not that i'm talking ego or something
but the way they conduct themselves is just pure....erm...say....un sportsmanly?lol...they can't play, can't take the norms of soccer....might as well just go home and play winning eleven..sounds more of like a very good idea for me. After that, went to CCHS and there were only five of them.....there.....and was like..huh??wat the hell happened to the rest...doesn't matter....So after the whole day of burning fats and carbo......i realised i had ate nothing since friday nite...so we went to kallang's mac to consume our dinner...and hell i ate a load~!
okay
next is the screwed part...
i met angus and chris after that.....angus came over mi place after dinner to watch the liverpool game (okay the kop lost....shuddup) after that we met chris and then ..the ending sucks lah
fuck the two of them`!

i think

I think the server is severly screwed man..two days and still my post is not up yet......wat the~

Third one

Orite, everyone has two grandmothers.....that includes mi as well....but i do have a third one....a neighbour that was old enough to be my granny and i did called her granny. She dotes on me to the extent that sometimes, i do treat her like one. While remembering the things she has done for me, puts a smile on my face. That day when my mum threw me outside of the house and refuses to take me back in. She opened the door and said :"Must be you being naughty again, huh?" She then took me in, gave me a warm shower and dress me up in new clothes, before pleading on my behalf. I was only five years old. When i was two, my mother told me that when i was down with mumbs (dunno how the hell you spelled it, anyway) She took care of me day and night....relieving my mother so that she could take her meal. She rushed to the hospital the min she heard that i was hospitalised....Whenever she takes me out, i go home loaded with tibits and toys. As days went by, her children grew up and then she moved, till then i only saw her once....and she smiled so beautifully when she saw me, tears watery when she saw how much i have grew. Though love last forever, humans don't. The latest was that she suffered a stroke attack, critical condition. It might have been almost a decade since i last saw her, but her existence is still very much existing in my memory. I'm goin to visit her next wednesday. For once, please...just this once....though i never had any faith in you, but just this once, please let her pull thru this ordeal.

Shifting~!!~!~!~

okay, i'm moving URL.....soon...in two days or more time..
www.unrebel.net/rebel
see you guys there~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!

Money³

OKay i enjoyed myself last weekend, that's that. usual routine, which i think i have been followin for a couple of months now and it seems comfortable to me, so i'm sticking with it for a while. And yea i've found a job as a floral stand keeper...sounds good huh?twenty bucks for less than an hour....if i'm onli keeping it.....but if i'm needed to set up that means twenty bucks for less than two hours lah ...the timming though is kinda off...weird.....very weird...i was keeping floral stands at 11.20 pm at holiday inn on a sunday....by the time i'm done it's almost midnite.....luckily chris gave mi a ride if not i would be a gone fucker~

OKay so a brand new start to the week, more workload, due dates nearing and more bullshit and the more i'm lost with the new modules....Don't understand a single shit...basically i'm clueless lah....floating around..dunno what the hell is wrong with myself at times. Today, someone commented on my pronounciation..i said scaling, she claims shearing....it's a whole lotta difference if u asked me...and she insisted that i said shearing..sigh so much for having two surnames and behaving like a bitch...these are classic examples of people that u can never win an arguement...so it's better not to start any argumentative topics with them, like wat winnie did the whole day....good job bud..

Well my department has persuaded me to try for a busary, which i thought was like huh? how can i be involved in two applications with the same company at a go?well the thing is that if i'm accepted for the scholarship, then i won't be able to take up the busary and vice versa, but!the results for the busaries are usually released earlier.....so what am i gonna do?!

The Ghost Of You

I never said I will lie in wait forever.

If I died We'd be together. I can't always just forget her.

But she could try.

At the end of the world or the last thing I see,

You are never coming home, coming home~

Could I ? Should I ?

And all the things that You never ever told me.

And all the smiles that are ever, ever, ever.

Get the feeling that You're never, all alone.

And I remember now, at the top of my lungs, in my arms.

She dies. She dies!

At the end of the world or the last thing I see.

You are never coming home, could I ? Should I?

And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me.

And all the ghost that are never gonna catch me.

If I fall down.

Three cheers for sweet revengE~!

YES YES YES!~~!~! i finally got the dough to spoil myself with a new CD!!not exactly that new, but still..nvm~
Yah...so i was like so estatic the moment i saw that the stock was replenished by HMV..and since borders don't carry any of my chemical romance stuffs...i have no other place to look for it ...yup...so the day went by,....not too good not too bad..very typical day of my life...
just that the elective i took is starting to piss mi off big time...i did nothing but just following the beats the whole darn two hours...while he side tracked and come back and side track and come back and side tracked and come back.....make that infinite times lah...duhz.....

Like i said

Nothing new to type this entry,
Myammar are sore losers, enough said.

2005

The year has finally come to an end, so much has went by and some many people as well. . . ..
My world will take on a different perspective from now on (i hope so) This year's celebrations was kinda low key....spent the night either playing PS2 or Mahjong over at a friend's place....just felt that it's just another day, another excuse to get drunk, laid or wat so ever....no big deal....everything seems so normal..like a typical friday nite...perhaps dued to the tsunamis? Condolences to all victims and families alike. ... . .That's the best i can do now.....

so my new year resolution goes like this :

1. to able to land that ST scholarship. .. .. . . it would certainly make a difference in my life...and lighten the burden on my folks..considering my sister is gona so make it into U anyway.

2. Hopefully form a new band, drumming is still very much my passion

3. everything else would stay the same. i'm happy the way my life is at the moment.

finally, hope that ASIA will finally get that warning system in this region.

WE have got to learn from mistakes.

given the low altitude level of india