Masks that we wear

We all wear masks. Every moment, yes...every instance....even while i'm typing this entry.....The only time i think u will finally take the mask off is during your own sleeping time...when your real self can then be seen by another.
Think about it, every morning u wake up, brush your teeth, after givin yourself a facial wash, it's time to put it on again..the moment u step outta the door. You suddenly take on a brand new attitude and character..all ready to face the world outside of your front door. No matter how petty you are, u give in and swallow. How fiery your temper be, you act like you a major iceberg. How quiet you may seem, when you are tryin your best to not yell out your trueself. Sad but true, people all around us wear masks. Doesn't matter if you agree with me or not, i dun give a fuckin damn. The temptation is just too great for us to resist, cos we realised that we all posess a certain ability to suck up or curry favour, as some of you might know, to a known party, let alone a total stranger. We are all victims of modern human relationships, sometimes all too fake that makes me sick. People that are superbly nice to you can turn and stab you without u realising it till it's too late. Who doesn't? the sacrifice that was worth paying in order to earn a higher pay or gaining better status, making characters vulnerable to this test, which again another sad but true thingy, all have failed. Those who can claim that they haven't done anything or wear masks in front of people, they are the ones that refuse to take their masks off..keeping them on 24/7. So after all these, the only person that might be able to catch a short glimspe of your true self, is none other than your spouse. Ever wonder, do you really know yourself that well? the only peeps that can answer yes to this question must have been one heck of a narcissist(pardon my spelling). I for one, have never made an attempt in knowing myself, how i'm like in others' eyes, how fucked my attitude or character is and how short is my temper.
The only thing i knew about myself is that, got time..smoke lolz...I'm suddenly running outta things to type, maybe it's the sleepyness....anyway, deepest condolences to those who passed away all over asia, that sad disaster.

For those who din know what lead to this disaster, basically, we all live all our lifes on plates...different plates which scientists have given names to. This plates are moving all the time while we are sleeping, running or whatever. So when two plates collide and rub against each other, the effects are earthequakes. But yesterday, the plates met at a part which was under water, therefore the vibrations caused an underneath wave rush toward shores. A Tsunami is hence produced...okay i'm not exactly a geography student...and that was like based on my best knowledge...any comments are welcome lah..but then again which won't be bothering me a single bit..cos i said before i dun give a fucking damn...bahahah

P.S : Quote of the day : NI MA MA DE CHOU YIN DAO!

i'm half way there~

Erm. . . well. . .i was shortlisted to be on a scholarship offered by singapore technologies..
The chances of me gettin selected is so slim.....3outta 15..man. . .
but still i'm goin for it....i need the assistance.....financially. .. .
apart from that..i do not have much to write or type today..feeling a lil tired after the whole weekend of outtings....how to make it for CRS lateR!die..that stingy fatherfucker....

i wan a famous face

Yeah i was channel surfing ( as usual when i have nothing positive to do)
i came across this segment....i want a famous..when peeps go under the knife for a shot of looking exactly like their fav celebrity. SO! this week is about this twin brother who totally idolised brad pitt....and wana look like him... Cos they think they are a pair of losers....which i think they are....after hearin their reasons for wanting to look like brad pit......they come from a rich home ...so basically they can afford wat they want....i mean....one drives a benz and the other a lexus.....oh their names are matt and mike....i forgotten but one of them actually wanted to get the surgery becos he got rejected by his crush and wan her to realise wat she's missing out..the other brother was becos he just cannot managed to pick girls up at parties...-_-"
their total cost of plastic surgery was about like twenty thousand US?ARgh i cannot take it..
how about those with no looks and no money???these two fuckers are like the lamest pair of brothers i have ever come across lha!

Cemetery drive

"Cemetery Drive"

this night, walk the dead in the solitary styleand crash the cemetery gates. in the dress your husband hatesway down, mark the gravewhere the search lights find usdrinking by the mausoleum doorand they found you on the bathroom floor

i miss you, i miss you so far

and the collision of your kiss that made it so hardback home,

off the run singing songs that make you slit your wrist it isn't that much fun, staring down a loaded gunso i won't stop dying, won't stop lyingif you want i'll keep on cryingdid you get what you deserve?is this what you always want me for?

i miss you, i miss you so far

and the collision of your kiss that made it so hardway down,

way down way down, way down way down, way down way down, way down

i miss you, i miss you so far

and the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

i miss you, i miss you so far

and the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

made it so hardway down,

way down

way down,

way down

way down, way down way down, way down

way down

we are the dead~!

Maltesers~
My personal favourite snack....or sin or chocolate..
Balls of Crisp malt centers covered with smooth milk chocolate
Durians~
The fruit of pungent odour that's enable to suffocate me till death
green thorny fruit white yellow fleshy seeds that people usually consume
no idea why singaporeans like it so much...or rather why everyone but me likes it!!!!


My homies recently would have realised that i'm startin to carry a wallet chain with mi .....cos it's my latest buy.....
so there was this day i went into a flash and splash boutique...and the sales assistant whom saw my chain....whispered to her colleague..:"EEE, his chain looked so fake."
Wow bitch.....thanks =P i bought it off the offical boutique of quiksilver lor..in KL you fuckin well dweller!!!

Another :
walked into class with a mickey mouse tee and berms
Girl from next class : "nowadays still got people wear mickey mouse one meh?" to her friend
another fatherfucker
it says suits ages from 6 above.....well i'm 22 and that makes mi well qualified to wear the tee shirt.....
knn wat's their problem....or i think i have issues lah. My ears are surprising sharp...i dunno why......so i often overheard people's conversations and gossips lah. .. .i can always practise selective hearing..but somehow i just can't...unless i have ears half the size of my face....(<<<< know who u are?)

discovering music

so. . .. .nothing major happened today basically............well sort of realised that i have this major lecture on thursday..and i'm glad to say that i won;'t be sharing the hall with the other two classes...pure nuisance~!
okay.. . . .so i went queensway with kwang hao and lip hann .. .
here's the main reason why i'm posting today

DISCOVERING MUSIC~

yes this is the name of my general elective module....mine..how wrong was i to chose that ......
the first assignment...dued 9th feb.....
i)describe in brief (approx 150 words) mozart's life journey.
ii)describe in brief (approx 150 words) this particular piece composed by him......

i have never ever developed a love for classical music before...and i dun think i will..i mean how am i goin to bullshit my way through this when all i felt was NUMB when he asked about how i felt after listening to Canon in D....somebody HELP ME~! But then again.......i certainly hope that i will be able to learn a new perspective in learning about music though.........GRRR

me in KL

Yoz,
Back from the capital of Malaysia.........spent the past four days there....basically just....walking looking eating shopping lolz. . . .it's basically not much a difference from orchard road...just that things are cheaper.....traffic is horrible, public transport makes mi confused most of the time....so i resort to cab taking everywhere i go......and bargainin with the cab drivers was a brand new experience. . .lolz. cigaretteS~yes~~~~dirt CHEAP~~~~GRRR~~~~!!~!!~should have brought more.....if possible..but dued to unforeseen circumstandances...i lan lan bring a lil onli..sigh wat the hell. . ..
bought a couple of shoes...a couple of tees....majority on booze, fags and cabs and food~!
but all in all..KL is still a fun place to take a holiday..but just that...dun go too often......the shopping centers are so gigantic~!~!~!~!~!walked till balls drop man~!~!~!~~!!~!~
i know i sound funny in this post...but heck`!! mi dun care!~!~~!~!me too estatic over new piercing~!

without a paddle

Apologies to those who misunderstood my last post...and thanks for those whom asked....=P

okay, i watched without a paddle...the story of three best mates whom have went on with their lifes gathered one day by death of another.....then started this outrageous treasure hunting hike for the dead friend's sake....i must say....the three of them resembles me, chris and angus a lot...well the mixture of attitude and stuffs...being unlucky and stuff..though it's not a good show but it has sure gave mi an insight of wat the future the three of us holds...lolz

my would be suicide note

dear homies,

Sad to say, when it's your turn to read this bullshit, i'm long gone. Relieved of life's stress and misery. It might seem sudden, but i beg your pardon. No one knew how much pain i feel inside, though i have tried. No one understands me, not even myself. I do not hold a grudge towards anyone, for it is my own decision to put a halt on my life journey. No matter how many times i have raised my voice towards anyone, i still loved every single one. I may be a stubborn character, u guys should have know the day you met me. Already 22, i have earned myself absolutely nothing except failures. Others might have claimed but life still makes no sense to me. I felt the need to liberate myself, so just let it be. If a chance of me being saved, spare me the agony of facing all of you again. No i repeat, i don't carry a single bit of hatred towards all of you. Thanks for walking me this far, but i think you guys continued the journey without my existence. To my folks, i appreciate the fact you two brought me into this world and having you two sending me off in this manner isn't the right way to repay all the debts i have owed. To my younger sista, thanks for all the support, be it financially or mentality. Though we always have heated arguements, you're still my only sibling and no matter where i will be, i will try to look out for you. Angus and Chris, sorry for leaving you guys ahead of schedule. The growing old and drinking kopi part, i will pay you two back if there's a next life. Times when i kept a distance from the both of you, my most sincere apologies. You still make the world's best pair of homies. the past eight years wouldn't have been so great without the both of you. To members of my Ex band, thanks for introducing me to music, the time and money u peeps spent to help my improvement. The disbanding part, i shall leave it as it is.

To all those whom have pissed me off or whom i hated the sight of you, fuck you. You guys should know who you are. Or maybe Angus or Chris can help detailing of you into different catergories. Oh Ya, Dawn. How can i forget all about you, thanks for nothing though. You pushed me away when i was at the lowest point in my life. Lastly, Gerri. Nothing i write or say makes any difference now. I love you always.

Farewell,

LinT